I am LDS (Mormon/ member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints), a wife, mother of several spectacular children, a daughter, sister and friend. Part of my journey in this life has been impacted by being raised by alcoholics and discovering that I married a man that wrestles with his own addictive behaviors and now I am on a journey of healing from the trauma to my mind, heart and soul.
My father is an "in-denial" "dry" alcoholic, meaning he stopped drinking but never healed the issues related to his drinking problems (a toxic relationship much of the time) and believes that because he stopped drinking he was not actually an alcoholic (WRONG!).
My mother also was in denial that she was an alcoholic, until she was on her death bed for the second time due to her body shutting down from the damage of alcohol. When she finally admitted there was "a problem", it was too late and she died weeks later. This has created HUGE trauma for me as she was my safe place in this world (I know, sounds strange as an alcoholic...but she was a fantastic mother who didn't know how else to deal with her own broken heart).
My husband struggles with addictive behaviors of escape and numbing out his own pain and stress by using sexual behavior, money, and lies. We are working to heal from this and some days we do great and others it is a rough, bumpy and painful road.
I am co-dependent at times, and just simply wounded - but surprisingly resilient. I also wrestle with my own destructive behaviors that border on addiction. I am working the 12 steps of recovery for healing from Betrayal Trauma as well as my own battles, and find comfort and insight reaching out and connecting with others who truly understand. I have hope and a lot of love to share.
I welcome constructive, supportive and considerate questions and comments. A good discussion, even with differing perspectives, is always welcome!
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